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Fears of FriendshipHave you ever wondered? Wondered what it be like to be surrounded by people who love you dearly, but feel completely utterly alone?
I doubt that you would, thats a scary thought. Though I’m sure many do think about it. Even when they aren’t consiously thinking it.
“What will happen if I say the wrong thing? will they leave me because of it?” “what if I get into a fight with them? Will that be the end of this happiness?”
We all do it... worry about these things... But to the exxtent we worry... thats a different thing.
This is a short tale of a girl I know. I haven’t known her long, just a couple years. She’s one of my best friends... but she is also one of my biggest heart aches.
When we met there seemed like nothing was wrong. I had finally made a new friend at this huge school. The crowded halls bothered me but I didnt let it show too much. The clostraphobic feeling I got in some classes.
Then I walked into one class and was placed next
Nine TimesI saw him nine times.
The first time we were both sitting in the room together, getting ready to take the math test that would determine our placement. I was scatterbrained and throwing things around, trying to find the pencils that I had known I would need but had still just tossed in my purse. He was lounging backwards in his chair, looking for all the world as though he didn’t have a single care in the world, including the upcoming test. It annoyed me, that I was frantic and ready to scream, while someone else could be that relaxed.
I tested out of the class.
I don’t know if he did.
The second time I saw him, it was a few months after I arrived on campus. He was the one rushing and frantic this time, running across the square. He was probably late for class, though I had no way of knowing for sure. I was already lost in my own thoughts and ideas, deciding on my major and convincing people that yes, this is what I really want to do with my life. If they weren
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